Half way back to normal...

The 2nd thru the 4th was my last treatment of I.C.E Chemo. Boy was I happy! That stuff taste and makes you feel nasty. The doctors almost pushed me back a week due to low blood counts but I worked my magic and begged them to give the chemo to me that day ( begging for chemo... kinda odd)  My mind was prepared and ready to get poisoned. On Friday they gave me blood because my counts got way to low. I don't remember much of that day due to good ol' Benadryl. 

Now I am a few days out and just barely starting to feel the effects of chemo wear off. It took a little longer this time. I have a few weeks break before I go to the big guns of BEAM chemo and transplant. Other then sitting around becoming an expert at crafts, couch potatoe, and Ipad playing I have been looking through pictures.  I came across this lovely gem ( sorry Kim I had to post it ) 

This was summer of 2010. I was a year out of my first treatments. Life was oh so good! I was living the life of a single college student and was home in ALASKA for the summer.  Back then, I would have never thought I would be married, working with cancer patients AND becoming a cancer patient once again in just 2 1/2 short years.  I begin to miss this girl jumping into the air. She looks so HAPPY.  I get mad at myself for not appreciating those 3 years of being healthy. I wish every day that I could go back and just remember how it feels to be cancer free. Then I STOP.  I am so GRATEFUL for those 3 years. I could have relapsed only after a year and I would have never met sandy, gone to school, and worked where I work. I am so lucky to have had those years to do so much! 

Now that I am "Half way to being normal" I can almost see the light.  Just 4 weeks of being TOTALY sick and then its all up hill from there right?! My hair will slowly grow back and I will gain back my strength.  And this summer I will go to a GAINT rock and Jump off of it just like this. I will celebrate a new and healthy life. So cheers to a new year and being Half way to normal. 

I will be a survivor once again....