Sandy Jon

We all have trials in our life.  Some maybe big and others maybe small.  We may not understand right away why we face these trials in our lives, but we will always learn from them at some point. 

January 13th 2009 I found out that I had cancer and would undergo 6 months of chemotherapy and a month of radiation. Being my last semester of high school I was worried about A LOT of things.  I remember not really stressing to much about being sick. I mainly was worried about losing my hair. What girl wants to be bald her senior year.  At the time I had been dating a boy for awhile. He had just left 2 weeks earlier to college.  I began a lot of procedures to get me through chemotherapy. It was rough. It wasn't any secret that 2 weeks later I was dumped. That was really hard for me. To face a challenge so big and have to lose a best friend right at the beginning of the process. I struggled for the first couple months. Not many people now how hard it is to go through something like that. My self esteem was pretty low as I waited for my hair to fall out. Then a small tender mercy happened. My hair didn't fall out. It was amazing! I decided right then and there to stop feeling sorry for myself.  I may have lost a best friend but I realized how many I gained.  I also had my whole family who helped lift me up.  I couldn't have done it with out them. 

(Last Chemo round 1) 

November I relapsed. ( obviously ) A lot of people tell me "Oh you have done this before, this will be a piece of cake."  I would always laugh and smile back.  Not true.  Just because I have done it before doesn't mean I want to do it again.  I did think though that my treatments would be some what the same and that I would be ok. Also not the case. Its MUCH hard this time. I am also away from home and family.  On my 3rd treatment I remember laying in the hospital bed miserable and worn out. I looked over at Sandy and realized how lucky I am. All my prayers from when I was diagnosed the first time were answered.  I had a man that would stay by my side through thick and thin and never leave me. He has been through so much these past months and has never ONCE complained. He is ALWAYS lifting me up and encouraging my that " I can DO this." Sandy is truly my angle on earth. I thank my Heavenly Father for all the unanswered prayers 3 years back. Because I receive something so much better then what I was asking for.  Thank you Sandy for always being by my side, for believing we can beat this, and for your strong faith in our Heavenly Father that never wavers. I know your father is so proud of you. I love you.